12.10.2002

web-bleak

And here's another one:

I am jaded. I knew this but it really hit me tonight. It was just a small little thing, would have slipped under the radar but I tend to obsess. I remember when I wasn't like this, when I was hopeful, not just in spurts but mostly, and I know how I got from there to here and it is all quite depressing to think about. Besides brainwashing, I'm not sure how one undoes this sort of thing. But I'm trying to figure it out, at least.

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12.09.2002

web-blah-g

Jan wanted updates, so here's one:

Hate is a strong word, and yet it accurately reflects how I feel about updating this weblog. So I'm not doing it anymore. Except for this one time. And maybe one other time should the mood strike. Not many more times, for sure. Don't worry, the site won't go away (or lay awake nights worrying that it will NEVER go away), but it's gotta change, how I don't know yet exactly. This format just ain't workin' for me.

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